Caryn's

It's time..

2010-01-25T02:48:00.000-08:00

Moving onto..

TUMBLR!

come find me~
will post here if i feel like to again haha~

dearest minho says goodbye to all~ ^-^

Precious

2010-01-11T05:46:00.000-08:00

Susie is 6 years old.
She is a girl who have no worries because she have her dad always with her.
She always plays with her pearls, although they were not real.
But without fail, she will wear them everyday.
She loved the pearls.
She love her dad too.
One day when the father put susie into bed and asked:
"Do you love me?"
"Yes daddy, I love you more than anything."
"More than anything?"
"More than anything."
He paused and think, "More than the pearls? Would you give me your pearls?"
"Oh daddy! I couldn't do that. I love my pearls!"
"I understand," he told her and kissed her goodnight.
But she thought about it for a very long time and went to her dad.
"Daddy, I love you more than these, so you can have the pearls."
She handed them over.
"I'm so glad to hear that," he took out a box and hand over to her.
Inside the box, lies genuine pearls.

I want to be like Susie.

(Y)

2010-01-10T06:07:00.000-08:00

How's this?
I think sometimes my phone can serve a good function.
*insert smiley face*

End and beginning

2010-01-09T09:30:00.000-08:00

I cannot deny that I miss this group.

Last year was sent out to come to this group,

A place unfamiliar, I tried to make friends. CC's people are all very friendly.

It felt very much like a family with them.

Didn't expect myself to have such strong bond with this group.

I think i can say that it was stronger than previous group.

And now, I'm back to square 1.

Perhaps I didn't do enough for this group,

I can blame no one but myself.

Last LG together:

It was pleasant, cause almost everyone was there.

Went to buy a $5 gift for gift exchange.

Then went to OC's rooftop for lg.

The sharing was good! And the affirmations and encouragements.

One by one, we affirm each other.

Took our last photo together too.

It's just a normal simple lg that we do everyweek.

But it's our last one together..

Service + Central vision night:

Went for our usual place for lunch, last time.

Ate and went for service, and bought my dearest rabbit.

Omo~ I love you so much minho~ ^-^

Minho's the name of my rabbit keke~ ^-^

Today's our first outing together, there will be many more to come!

During CVN, I realise the importance of having to save the world again.

I felt much more energise, and i feel like i want to do more again.

Splits up of the group, I really will miss cherms, as she will be moving on.

For the past almost 1 year, the times we spent as a group,

the bond we have. I believe we still have it with us.

But it's unbearable to part, it feels like a part of me is gone.

I really treasure this group, CC5.

Tears keep trickling, it feel like my heart has tore.

But I have to get on with life,

I'm back to my old group, I will try to work hard!

Rebuild the relationship within us.

Everything, is back to square1.

I miss you sissys (CC)!

Nativity

2010-01-08T20:34:00.000-08:00

Aww~ I want this album so badly! :(
The 3 months since pre-debut, I've been waited up to now.
Finally they are willing to come out and debut~
Minwoo and Kevin hohoho~
And yeah i shall better stop now..
I need to go for lunch now, central vision night today,
I will miss the rest, I will blog about last lg and today after i come back at night.
Bai.

It's a new year

2009-12-31T21:21:00.000-08:00

I have almost been rotting at home officially for 5days.
Well done!
Happy new year!
Hope I will lead a even more fulfilling life this year and may GBM~

He first love

2009-12-26T08:50:00.000-08:00

I know I'm not in much position to talk much about humans and stuff.
And I do not claim myself to be spiritual.
In fact I'm just like any other humans.
But after much thinking today, I have some thoughts.
Today is one of my most "thinking" day.
So after dance had been thinking and talking with cleo.
Why people pursue in such stuff and why they do that and stuff.
Human desires. That's something to be proud of at time but dangerous.
Aside from all these, my main point now is not really about thinkings.
It's God's thinking, I mean why think about others so much?
Shouldn't we always be thinking about God?
There's still hope within, it's somewhere with us, it's always with him.
Every step you take, he will follow.
Every breath you breathe is because he had given.
You take a step back him, he'll take one step towards you.
You ran, he chase.
He will never give up on you, so don't give up on yourself.
Why all these love from him, were always not returned?
Why would he go through so much for us?
I won't think it's worth it, neither would I be bothered if it were me.
Because he first love you.

The answer in him is love.
Because of his love, there was hope.

I have hope

2009-12-24T08:10:00.000-08:00

The fact that i'm blogging this, I don't really have to say much.
But I have powerful words to say.
They don't need to be big and chim words but these words can give strength.
"God is real".
I really do and believe that!
It's christmas now! Merry christmas have a good time too~
So now instead of using the word "FML".
Why not complain to god "GBM" = God bless me.

No love no more

2009-12-20T23:41:00.000-08:00

Aish~ Sundown have long pass~ But argh still missing them~!
(Esp the middle one you stupid boy! D: )
And to the leftest guy hahaha (leftest? -_-)
You totally bad mood all the way~ You rolled your eyes when you rap.
But I know why it happened, cannot blame you too~
Yes~ Hwan is still as short as ever, but maybe he seemed to have grown? :)
Argh! I wanna go for the fanmeet!! D:
No $$ + tix should have all sold out by now.. D:
왜요?? :( But sure im still going to stalk with ftilove~
Totally love them! ^-^ Missed the girls!
Hwannie I hope you saw my super striking placard. :P
It's too striking not to notice and I was standing right in front of you. HAHA
Anyway i shall stop with this crap lest people think im crazy..
Well, level camp was great as i've said im my lj. :P
And I have made 2 korean friends, kyungmin and yoonkyeong.
Win~ ^^v
I'm sick and I have cough and whatsoever.
And yesterday i dreamt that I stab myself with a screwdriver. Dx
That's horrible!
And yeah.. I got to stop blogging cause ima meet my sheppy.
I don't wanna be late~
Ja byebye~

oh oh oh over love love it's pain pain

2009-12-09T05:05:00.000-08:00

I will meet 5 of you tomorrow hopefully~

Helluuuuu~ Yesterday had dance retreat although i missed usher's one.
HAHAHAHA! I am super tired.. It was fun yesterday really~ :)
All the dancers are cool~ Rock on! \m/
And today went for el talento's practice. Hehe, it was fun too~
Maybe everything's fun to me since I'm saying that! HAHAHA~
I don't know~ Anyway my mum said something that kinda assured me today.
Here's the conversation:

Chinese translate to english by me;
Mom: Hmm.. Do you think that I got the job is really thanks to Jesus?
Me: Of course! Definitely.
Mom: Because I went to Aunty susanna's church and then I did pray for a good job,
and indeed now I have one, do you think I should go back to the church to thank God?
Me: Of course! You should!

And then my mom should be going to church this sunday!
Better be at least hahaha!
But then i should pray more for my mom, because she don't always mean what she says.
And yeah so tmw, am going to airport to see FT Island and of course!
Brown Eyed Girls! I hope they perform "sign" in Singapore.
I wanna learn that fan dance. HAHAHA.
And then this coming saturday will going to be...
SUNDOWN SEOUL FESTIVAL 09! Concert!!
Would wanna go there!! And maybe after the concert will join the rest~
Am quite excited. But I tried for an experience first~ HAHAHA!

Can't believe I'm meeting this super cute drummer soon!! ^-^
Happy~

2009-12-06T22:45:00.000-08:00

Prince Changhyun and Goodboy Minho~ Keke~
(goodboy? *pfff*)

I agree on the prince part hahaha~ ^-^
Changhyun is not only the father of the group but the prince~
Why have I been overcomed by the Little boy? D:
Anyway, I don't have to go malaysia~ Yey~ :3
I think my grandmaw is alright..
Just came back from lunch with my mom, been using the computer since.
My mom is outside looking for a dental for her treatment..
The rest went for OBS already~
Well~ Fine with me even i did not go. :3
I Need to do my QTQT~
I wanna sleep now.. -_-;

Manmanhani?

2009-12-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

I ship Eli and Kiseop~! (Y)(L)

Omg I want Ukiss to come Singapore again~!
And good news is my mom got a jobs at sentosa soon coming casino.
She will be working in the f&b area and have free admission.
Thanks God for her getting the job!
Once again, God have shown grace towards us.
Grace is receiving something that we don't deserve,
But by God's grace, my mom got the job.
And saddeddddd..
I will not be able to go for both usher or dance retreat..
I have to go to malaysia at a last minute to visit my grandma.
My aunt said she might not be able to make it again..
And I was forced to go heh heh. :3
Whoopees~ Ah, fine shall go.
Will be back on thursday. My mom better keep her promise!
Because I'm definitely not missing out on Seoul'd out how can I?
FT Island is coming singapore!
MINHWANNNNNNNNNN!
Was thinking whether to stay overnight or not..
Still not sure, I guess I will go for first service on Saturday~ :)
I wanna go for the fanmeet and fansign in Jan next year.
Hey it's expensive, don't think I will be able to make it~ D:
Well then up to here.
Naega guroke roke manmanhani?

Please work hard~ ^^

I wish for your safety

2009-12-05T08:17:00.000-08:00

The Uncle at the back is posing with us~

I'm super duper tired now.. I feel like a zombie..
But no, I must wait for buan hua to upload the mickey mouse on facebook.
Serious I want to buy the big size mickey mouse at carrefour.. :(
No money~ $~~
Anyway today had dance super early, ytd slept at 2+.
Hence I'm very tired today..
During sermon today i almost doze off.. the notes i write are like illegible..
I wanna sleep soon.. Shall do so after seeing the pictures.
Had this dream yesterday,
Very glad that I have that dream..
But some misfortune came up, I hope you will be fine..
Discuss about how good taeyang is in wedding dress.
Seriously, that you gotta see.. His solo dance part is jjang~! (Y)
I still need to do QT later, tired~
God please give me strength~ Whoosh~
Prayer for the year: I wanna become fairer~
Hallelujah praise the Lord, In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
God I thank you in advance, I know you're gonna help me! ^^

Ending picture of Minhao~!
Yes, I wanna dream of you again.. keke~

2009-12-04T08:10:00.000-08:00

Minho ♥

Loving SHU-I more and more everyday!! ^^ (esp Minho~) *cough*
Well, after i came back from malaysia, I felt good. Hoho.
And next saturday is Seoul'd out09 already!!
I'm really excited for it and looking forward for it!
Me is going to see Minhwan~ Yay!! ^^
And looking forward to Christmas dance too~~
There's so many things to look out during this holidays.
Camp will be a blast too i bet! ;)
Had combine cg today with cc4~
It was quite fun, yay~
And tomorrow is service already.. Hmm.. And to think this week pass by so fast..
Eli and kiseop rock in Ukiss~ Actually all of them do!
Just noticed SHU-I didn't perform on musicbank today. :(
Really didn't? D:
Peace~ ^^v

1 minute 1 second

2009-11-22T23:21:00.000-08:00

OMG! WHY SO CUTE?? And I love you to bits~ (L)

Seems like now I like Minho more than hwan! How? Why?
But both look so alike and cute~ Argh~ Heh heh. ^^v
Anyway today manage to wake up early and then headed for training.
Didn't do much today, ran 5 rounds and did 10 of 80m strides.

I don't wanna get darker anymore, the fear and terror of me getting dark..
Then after short training went to help school to pack up and move.
Heh, Yeah.. After that went to eat with reden in tiong. Then home.
Now using the super slow computer. Please don't R.I.P so early Mr Com.
I need to get my daily news! Hahah! And Child Of Empire haven't debut yet!
Cannot die on me~ *cry face*. And then so, yeah. Later will be having dance.
And then tomorrow training again. Mr Sun, don't come out tomorrow k?
It's not your shift tomorrow, let Mr Cloudy handle it~ ;)
And what's worse will be after I leave for malaysia camp, I'll be deprived of Musicbank!
OMG! NOOOO! I wanna watch please help me! SHU-I~~
Will there be love letter? :) I hope so, FT Triple didn't perform in last Musicbank.
Ah, Deprivedddd~~ Please takecare everybody. The weather's cold now.
Wear lots~ Then, up to here..

2009-11-22T04:11:00.000-08:00

Well, hello Minho bb why wrapped up until like that? Keke~

Hello long time no see people, Or maybe just myself haha.
I have nothing to do seriously..
Blogger seems so unfamiliar to me after I've been using lj.
Anyway SHU-I ftw~ Hope they'll perform on inki again soon~ D:
FT fanmeet next year! I wanna go~
Many things been pissing me off now.. -___-;;
My computer is really slow and my parents are being annoying now.. -__-;
ARGH~ I've much more plannings to do and going to be busy this week.
And then soon I'll set off the malaysia! Yes! ^^
Bye~ ^^

Abracadabraaa

2009-09-01T04:03:00.000-07:00

when everything starts to crumble.

Hi decided to post here since it's been a long time i've not really been posting.
Because blogger is such a gay at times really i wanna slam my com.
Ahaha, kidding. Went back to kindergarden recently again.
Sometimes it really do feels quite peaceful.
I'm quite tired of the world alr.
When people are being fake and all.
Last time when we were so close, and now apart.
Really, you did a great job is doing so i must say.
Anyways i also don't know what more to say alr.
And oops i have not done my IC yet. Heh.
Yeah, but so far i have quite a boring life. Nothing much to hear from me.
And my mom may not wanna work anymore.
What a bother. I guess my allowance will be cut to half.
Thanks man! With 5bux everyday around there how am i gonna save up?
Ugh! Such annoyance. -.-
But i guess no choice, just pray everyday that some extra money will fall from heaven. :(
And to think i have many more to save up for.
Perhaps this time i will think im lucky for not going for OBS.
But i wanna go haha, no more forms. :(
Sigh forget it, i will not eat every weekdays i guess.
I can do this!

Hardly update

2009-08-18T07:06:00.000-07:00

All i want to do is to explore places like this.
I love sceneries (L).
Anyways CAs are over but it's about 4 more weeks till SAs. -.-
I don't think we can get to relaxx.
So i guess i will start to study earlier this time.
Today did Lit assignment at home first, then went Muay thai with the rest.
That place rock \m/.
Came home quite late.
I don't wanna talk to scary people, cause you might never know their true colours.
They are really horrible and scary.
Why are you so horrible? Can't you look at people in a better side?
Anyway i really hate my gap in the middle of my 2 front teeth. -.-
It's grosssss. D:
I hope the gap will close up soon, and blogger's being a gay. ):
I hardly ever get to update like this.
Perhaps after moving to Lj more alr, i guess there is much better.
But gotta take time to update here too.
Tmw going dental oh yeah, what colour shall i get for my braces tmw? :)
Me is tired now. I shall gtg soon ahaha.
Bi.

for now, i just wanna find you, where are you?

Barae?

2009-08-11T08:18:00.000-07:00

On a cute saturday night.^^

Anyway, yeah i know it's been a long time since i've update this place.
Pardon me for my negligence. ^^
Ca2 starts today, and tmw till friday i will have more paper.
After school went over to francesca's.
Then went for spize for dinz with fran and lm.
I tell you ah, the tomyum ah make my stomach pain man.
But okay, still quite nice. Ate prata too, came back still eat.
I'm very very full now. HAHA.
I hope i will be able to go for Muay thai. HAHA. Prz mom? :(
Yeah and Kayaking soon with the hockers yo. ;)
Hope my exams pass with flying colours~ Oh whee~~ ^^
I think i shall post till here then, shall go and study now i guess. ^^
Bbz.

Barae~

Turn my cold heart into the sun

2009-07-08T06:59:00.000-07:00

And yeah, i miss haru v much now! :(
He is so cute and always filled with smiles. (L)
I think i look v retarded in that pic but ohwells.
I could see his face alr anyways. Keke. And yes, I miss Marcus.C too! (L) :(
But what to do? They had to return to their country.
And yes, blogger is finally working with everything.
Like i can finally upload this picture, before that i deleted all my posts. Oh my. :(
Anyways today training was woah man. So tired, i feel like a zombie today.
And what's more? Today's training was at sengkang JWC pitch!
Totally miss that place, but many things have been taken away.

Anyway, my life is full of ups and downs.
I always question myself of the world, because i think that there's so much things i've not learn.
And there's so much things that i want to know and find the answer to people.
I know the way of life is through God.
So here's the Q&A for my thoughts :

-Why would people not want to know Christ?

Because they would rather go for what they see? Physical love, a love that people think that will be fulfilled by a physical being, love of words, touch showering everything they've got.
Parental objections which i think is a very superficial excuse..
boring just the word of it?
Don't want to waste time, or because they do not believe?

What you see is not forever, but what is unseen is forever.

Lamentations 3:22-23 - His compassions never fail -- They are new every morning
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

No matter the struggles, challenges and obstacles you have in your life, wake up every morning and know that each day is a new opportunity to bask in His love and compassion, like the sun. No matter your circumstances, His love is there, never failing, new every morning.
Everyday, everytime, he is the source of energy, i sometimes too have let myself and God down.
But even though all this, his love will never stop and i hope that it will be my source of strength for eternity. I must know that all i need is his love. And never try to ask for too much.
Shall do my homework soon and then sleep im so tired and suffering from emotional wreck.
HA! Whatever it maybe. Bye people.